Life hates me 7/29/12


God damn it… I can’t believe how crappy I feel… After a week straight of working several hours I got a week off because of a scheduling error, which isn’t a big deal since I was honestly exhausted and have a lot on my plate but just my luck the day after I started that week off I got sick right away. . It’s ridiculous right? I mean, cut me some slack here. So instead of doing all of the productive things I wanted to do I was instead stuck inside with a terrible sore throat and a head ache. Luckily I did get a few things done and I had hoped that after that was all over I would be able to work again but the day my cold thing got the worst is when I went back to work. I don’t know if it was because of the heat or the smell of hot sauce and pizza that got to me but it just made it worse than ever before. I had told myself hat I was going to power through, at least get through half of the day but just three hours in my Managers noticed how much I was struggling and sent me home. My one manager who I love so much because he’s so awesome joked around telling me to get him sick. He lives right upstairs of the whole operation being the owners son and all so we joked “You’re too sick, go home!” And imagining him trudging up the stairs. My other boss was less friendly but he’s not known to be soft and fluffy and was saying something along the lines of I was going to infect everyone. So once the other girl came in they pretty much kicked me out XD. I got home feeling miserable with a head ache, sniffly nose and killer sore throat and in desperation took some NyQuil, which was clearly my mistake because it just made me feel even worse than before.. I fell asleep but it wasn’t restful and now that it’s actually late I can’t get to sleep not to mention it’s making me so nauscious for some reason. Ugh just kill me now… this is all so brutal. I’m hoping that this is my illnesses endgame and it will finish up soon…  otherwise I don’t know what I’ll do I can’t keep preparing for classes under these conditions.

Being civil


Alright guys, this is my first time posting about my current job which is at a local amusement park. I’ve been working there nearly a month but may soon have to leave because of school, but I want to give it a go first before officially calling it quits. Anyway, I’m a generally good person, I like to help people when they are in need and like to make people happy whenever I can. When I heard that my co worker was going through a really hard time, her dad had just died, losing a battle to cancer. I had told her right off the bat that if she ever needed me to cover or ever needed help or ever needed to go home early I would cover her and would take care of her, It’s just thought it was the right thing to do and even teared up at the thought of what it would be like if I lost my dad. She did use these opportunities, leaving early a few days because she was understandably tired, covering her when she needed to take personal breaks, so on and so forth. I don’t know if it’s just me but when someone does something nice for me, I try to be nice to them, and it’s not like I’m asking her to give me a ton of gratitude or anything like that, all I ask is to be treated as a human but this girl… I don’t know what her deal is but she treats me like shit. At first I thought it was just the situation, but she treats everyone else fine. Maybe you’re not understanding what I mean by treating me like shit, so let me give you a couple of examples;

-About a week ago we had a camp come in, I was working at the ticket redemption area, where kids redeem tickets they won at the arcade for little prizes, there was this little girl hanging out around that area, just watching kids get their prizes all the while being calm. I asked her if she had any tickets, she told me she didn’t have any money, so seeing that I had a dollar in my tip jar I took it out and gave it to her to play some games and win some tickets of her own. At this my co-worker came up to me and said “You know we all split those tips right?” I told her I did, she says she saw me take a dollar out to which I responded I was planning on taking a dollar out of my split of the tips from the very beginning. To this she really blows me away in saying that people have been talking about me taking tips from the bar. Now, when I serve a customer at the bar and they leave a tip for me I take that tip and put it in my tip jar, it’s not like I shove it in my pocket or anything like that, I just put it in the tip jar that we will be splitting anyway. She tells me that I’m not even supposed to be working the bar anyway. I told her that there are many times where she goes home and it’s just me and one other person working, that person may be working at the ticket station and if there is a customer there at the bar I am going to help them. I’m not just going to let them sit there hungry and thirsty, that’s just ridiculous. And it’s true, there are so many times where she just goes home early when she’s not supposed to, which isn’t a big deal since we can handle it. Is it just me or is that ridiculous? Saying I’m not allowed at the bar when my normal station is just steps away. Sure, if they want a mixed drink which I don’t know how to do, then I’m going to get someone who can make it and they can have the tip, but if they want some food and beer then I know I can do that and there’s no reason for me not to. The fact she was practically accusing me of stealing tips is just unbelievable, I’m not the kind of person to take from others or leave them up shit creek without a paddle, I’m not going to take money that does not belong to me. I had told my other co worker about this, clearly upset by this, thinking someone would think of me like that when I have done nothing to suggest I was that kind of person, my other coworker gasped in shock saying there’s no way I would do something like that.

-Alright the second thing, this just happened a few days ago. We had a couple parties come in during this particular problematic encounter. After the majority of the parties were finished this coworker along with another girl who came back after I guess a few months of absence were doing the dishes of their parties. I wanted to help but seeing that two people were already doing the dishes I felt that if I tried to push myself in I would just end up getting in the way, a fair idea I thought, so I went along my way restocking and watching the counter like I’m supposed to when the problem one came up to me and started berating me saying “We have two parties to get to and you are doing nothing, you should be cleaning them, not us, this is ridiculous, blah blah blah blah” she went on and on. I don’t mind cleaning dishes when needed and if you need help there is a way to go about it, like, oh I don’t know, asking nicely perhaps? And it wasn’t just that. Not thirty minutes before she started yelling at me about this we were having a big rush, a line of people that I was taking care of all by myself without the help of any of the girls who are supposed to work as a team. She was relaxing in the back bullshitting around with the managers while I was rushing around everywhere. I don’t know, it all seems so stupid how hypocritical this girl is.

One day we almost connected, we were laughing and talking and she was treating me like a human, I had told her I was worried that she hated me, she told me that she’s just really timid, this was before these two intense incidents and it makes me think she was just spouting bullshit. Like I said, I enjoy helping people and I don’t expect them to kiss my feet or anything like that, but it’s not too much to ask to just use common courtesy, there’s a difference between being timid and being a bitch.

I just needed to get that out the since it’s been bugging me for a while and I want to talk to her but it’s just so hard to talk to her since she’s so unapproachable, she treats everyone else nicely except for me and I don’t know what I did wrong, I don’t want to seem bitchy or anything but to be quite honest I’m done with helping her out, until she shows an ounce of kindness towards me I have to say I’m absolutely done, if she needs me to cover her or needs to go home or anything like that I have to admit, the desire to help her has dissipated completely.

New computer!!


Hey guys, been a few days since I’ve last posted but I wanted to tell you about a big happening. I finally got a new laptop!! It’s been a hard time working where I’ve been working lately but in a way that job funded this new lappytop~ I used to love my old laptop but there were major problems that it presented through the three years I’ve had it. For one it was a fireball, it was an HP which is known for heating up but this is ridiculous, it would have fans going off super loud right from the get go and would heat up considerably within like 15 minutes, so much so I was forced to get a cooling station to save my legs from third degree burns. My old one was also a freaking behemoth, it had a 17 inch screen which is pretty ridiculous but it was under my cousins advice to get a huge ass screen, I guess he didn’t realize I would be bringing it into classes which brings me to my other problem, when I had it on during class because the fans were going off constantly it was super loud, like if I brought it to class and turned it on the people in front of me would stare at me because it was being such a distraction so I would get embarrassed and put it away it was also really heavy to bring into classes. Finally if that weren’t enough my laptop just recently decided it was having enough of me and so when I would close it to put it into sleep mode, you know when your laptop goes through it’s background processes? Well mine would keep going for hours, non stop, heating up more and more until it would be so hot when I got to it, which brings me to the next problem, I would open it, it would keep going on but the screen wouldn’t turn on, at all, I would press the power button forever and it wouldn’t turn the screen on our turn the computer actually off so I would be forced to unplug it and pop the battery out to finally get it to power down, but that’s not good for a computer. I had several people look at it, they had no idea what was wrong with it and set my computer to just power down completely if I ever closed the screen, but that’s not realistic considering the fact that the only real reason I ever shut the screen is to let it calm down a bit to cool off so it wasn’t burning me anymore and I wouldn’t ever be able to have it on for any extended period of time to write papers or do research or do homework or anything and that’s not realistic for a student so I had thought I would buy a new little laptop that I would bring to class just to take notes, but the more I looked at laptops the more I realized that if I got a more high powered one I would be able to afford I could just re-do all the old programs onto the new one and just nuke my old one to give to my parents since my dad is going back to school but he also has a desktop back at home he could use for other work. My boyfriend came looking with me and I found a laptop I could get for 300 dollars less than my current laptop that I absolutely fell in love with, he wanted to help me buy it which I appreciated but knew I could afford and I never like borrowing too much money from people I care about and that’s where we are today! I love my new Asus laptop~ It’s sort of steampunk esque with the light silvery gold tone with a black strip where the mousepad is and separated black keys. I love how it doesn’t really look like normal laptops and has a nice sleek design it also runs as cool as a cucumber, it has been on all day and is no hotter than lukewarm, it also has Windows 7 with is a lot better than the freaking Vista I had before not to mention it’s so quiet, you can’t even hear it and light enough for me to bring to my classes with ease. I still have a lot of files and programs to transfer over and acquire before I can turn my old one over to my parents. The main ones that I don’t have physical disks that I know of that I need are my photoshop, my sims, my printer, and a few other things, but it’s going to take time to get all of the stuff that I’ve acquired over three years over to this brand new machine.

What has happened here? 7/19/12


Jeez it’s been forever since I last posted… I had fully expected for no one to look at my posts at all any more, but I came back to find my blog just as active as the day I left, so it’s really weird XD There’s been a lot going on lately, I have a new old job, meaning it’s a job I had when I was much younger and came back to, there’s been a hell of a lot happening with my personal life and I have new shit to rant about. So for what ever reason people are still reading my posts. I have no way I know of of finding out who is looking, I’m sure it’s just people looking at my posts randomly with no thought of the other posts and junk and I would be surprised if you actually have read any of my posts all the way through since they mostly consists of my random ramblings so if you actually do read them, congratulations,  you’re bored with your life XD Anyway this is just a sort of intro to tell you I’m coming back in case anyone is actually looking out for me. See ya around!

End of the World as we know it.


If there is any of my blogs that you read, please let it be this one. It may be the most important thing I write. I’m not one for propaganda or have I ever felt that our government was doing things to harm us but with everything like PIPA, SOPA, And ACTA going around I’m starting to wonder. For those of you who don’t know, these bills pretty much give the government complete control over the internet. The bill is made to keep pirating down, but they are trying to take anything that is copyrighted off the net, shutting down many major sites and even more so they can use any reason to shut down sites. This takes the freedom out of possibly one of the greatest forms of free speech. Which brings us to a bill much more frightening.

Just very recently, the first of January actually. The government passed a bill that will destroy this country as we know it. Because of the confusing wording of this bill it passed without a problem, but the contents of this bill will take away the bill of rights, amendments 1 through 6, yes, this means that your right to free speech will also be taken. You will also have your right to silence taken away as well. What does this mean? Any means to force the question out of you will be possible. It will make this country a military state, including the incarceration of innocent people and rightful use of torture. The bill also gives the right to assassinate citizens and for the military to take over.  Please watch this video for more information, though I’ve never been sure about anonymous, thinking they’re nothing more than a couple good hackers. But, well, I might be seeing their strength.

 

Youtube makes me sad 1/24/12


Holy shit. Is this my first blog of the year? Jesus I’m slow. I swear I was fully planning on posting about the new year and about resolutions and about my Christmas presents (awesome longboard btw) and shit but I guess I just forgot. Oh well.

Anyway, last night I couldn’t sleep, which has thus led me to writing this blog at 7:30 in the god damn morning, so I decided it was about time I went on youtube and browsed around a bit. Now, I’m sure I’m not the only one who does this, but I tend to watch videos then look over at the random little suggested videos they display on the side and click the next video that catches my fancy, usually this tends to bring me to the weird area of youtube that has things like popping pimples and “Here’s my cat taking a shit” types of videos that honestly I would never look at. Well, this happened again. I don’t know what I was originally looking at that made this happen but before I knew it I was in the section of “In Memoriam” videos. You know, where people post videos about their dead grandparents or dead pets and all that, but of course me being the unlucky person I am, found myself in the section of dead babies. Disclaimer time! I do not like dead babies, I just feel the need to point that out before people start thinking I’m some sort of freak. I love kids, in fact I plan on becoming a teacher, which is why these things hit me so hard, and because I hate myself I can’t seem to stop watching them. I want to find out what happened. Before I know it, I’m bawling my eyes out telling myself I’m done and I’m never going to watch them again but then I click the next one. Ugh… I hate myself. Of course this happened after I haven’t slept all night, giving a nice start to an early frustrating morning.

American Muslim 12/19/11


Well, I’ve kind of been locked away in my room for the past couple of weeks studying for my finals and rushing everything to finish the semester off. In this time it seems like I have missed quite a bit that has been going down. One that has really seemed to kick things off is this new American Muslim TV reality show that has apparently caused a lot of controversy. I clicked on the news to hear some prick spewing “It’s not showing the radical side” you do realize that not every Muslim out there is radical and wants to blow us up right? Here’s the thing, the show is about AMERICAN Muslims, people who practice the Muslim faith and are citizens to this country. These are mothers, fathers, children, and grandparents, not insane people who want to terrorize our country and bring about new world order, just people trying to live their lives. And I understand, I was there when 9/11 happened so I know the fear that comes along with some beliefs, but the fact of the matter is that that’s such a small percentage of this huge religion (On of the biggest in the world) and to say that because someone is Muslim that they have to be radical just tells me that you have your head shoved too far up your ass. One of the biggest scandals with this is Lowes taking down its advertisements for the show. I don’t really get this, I think they should have just stuck with it, kept their advertisements up, taking it down just kind of seems strange, I can’t say what their intentions are, scandal is bad for business but taking an action like this has just put the scandal on them. But now that they did pull it they’re in a world of hurt. The people that do think there should be more input to the radical side are the aforementioned head-up-asses type, so do you really want their business? Listen, thinking that every Muslim out there has some master plan to overthrow the government and kill every American is just the same as saying that every Christian has the same beliefs as Westboro Baptist Church and wants dead soldiers. This show is about a family trying to live their lives in a country where their customs aren’t exactly accepted. Being in college I have come across many Muslims and they are all wonderful people, honestly some of the nicest people I have ever met. They have loving families of their own and it may surprise you, but they love being in this country. These assholes that think every aspect of the Muslim faith has to do with explosives seriously need to shut the hell up.