Relapse!! 9/21/11

Well, after a week of being kept from slleeping pills, because my nuerologist decided to give me something that would have less of the sleep makingf ormula or whatever they put into it. Turns out that without that formula I can’t sleep, I sear sometimes I think hes putting me on placebos. Anyway, my normal sleeping pills are back and I couldn’t be happier. The only draw back is after I take them I need to lock myself in my room so I don’t do anything stupid. at least when i do something stupid here I can keep it private. Ummm again, with the review I am going to be doing for “The Debt” that will have to hold till later, maybe tomorrow. Appreantly when I am on these things I loose my balance and pretty much act like i’m drunk.. Oh! I’m also building a minecraft materpeice!! A plantation styled house. Hopefully people will enjoy it when it’s done, but considering most the things were made while I was on these things might be a bad thing, oh well. Nighty nightt~

(I completely forgot to post this last night XD Oh well~)

I probably shouldn’t be posting this… 9/4/11

I always wondered it would be like if I just let my post sleeping pills reactions go and type stuff this e-paper. It’s pretty crazy, my fingers feel like they are jumpy, I only took it a bout an hour ago. My mind keeps switching between the screen on the tv and the one on my lap, I’m sorry if this is a little hard to understand, it’s a bit hard to type, who the few that are reading this they must be thinking “Dear lord, what’s wrong with her” It’ nothing jut the pills, it will all be gone tomarow , I probably wont even remember it when I wake up, maybe this will help me figure out what is going on in my mind while I am on the stuff. Right now I’m just watching anime, this time it is durarara, which is pretty ok and funny in certain parts, It’s a bit cinfuseing and honestly these things aren’t helping out much, I know that celty is supposed to be some for a folktale about a knight who has his head cut off, it’s clty. She’s going off to look forĀ  her old head again and has popped out in the middle of the public, oh well, episode is over.Erm, I really don’t know how well this is going to work out, nor how much of it makes sense, guess that’s a mystery to figure out tomorrow ,


Some guy from durara

Fighting Myself 9/3/11

So today I woke up super late, honestly expecting that I would be in bed all day and be anti-social (Yesterday was really crappy) then I decided to go for a walk, and smelt the familiar aroma of a bon fire, turns out a fraternity was having a little social event. I’m glad I went, because I met some new friends and connected with someone I have known for years but never was close to. I guess that goes to show that going out and doing something can do some good~

Anyway, the day is coming to an end, it’s already 11 at night and I’m poopy tired. Time to take my sleeping pills and cut myself off from society for the day, cause honestly when I try to communicate after taking them or do anything I don’t remember anything the next day.

I swear I will have more interesting stuff as this thing goes on, I just wanted to put a daily little thing. Have a nice day everyone!